I know this is just a page now, but it is really the only place I can talk to you again... I miss you, everyday I am trying to live in your memory. I am in college now can you believe that. I am a 3D modeler. Like a real game designer. It is so fun, something I think you would really love. I can't wait to see you again...I am sorry I turned into someone you won't recognize. I hope we can be together agin one day. Life has been so hard since you left. I hope i can make you proud and live a life worthy of your memory. I miss you.. -Nux

I miss you

Still thinking about you Lily, it's been especially hard since i've lost all our conversations, but I will never forget anything about you. Rest easy.

I realized today that a lot of places you used to be aren't there anymore. I realized today this is the only place left that I know where you are. I realized today that this might be gone someday, too. I'm trans now, by the way. I think you would have liked to know that. To have a new brother. Testosterone for 3 years, now. I think you would have liked to share that sort of twisted camaraderie about dysphoria. To make jokes about trading parts. I think you would have liked to know that I accepted it because of you. You showed me a path I never knew I could take. I think you would have liked to know that you saved me. I'm always going to carry a piece of you in my heart, I've realized. I miss you, Lily. I wish it didn't end like it did. I wish we were better friends than we were. You deserved better. I can't do anything about that, now. I can only thank your memory for every way you touched my life. I can only thank you for leaving this piece of yourself in my heart. <3

i miss you sm L, I think ab you often... fly high love