I'm not writing this whole response for pity, just giving you my perspective. I am doing much better, but I still have demons to fight. I only ask that people not just gloss over all of this and try to understand why I seem distant nowadays.

In truth, I also think perhaps my heart was broken one too many times, and I don't mean that in the romantic sense. I just got fed up with running after people. My fault is that I've always been a people pleaser, because I was scared to lose and let go. I like to make people happier than I can be in private. When people start leaving for whatever reason, a part of me goes with them. Now imagine how much of that is left, now that a lot of them had. It got pretty bad, emotionally, that I nearly did think to leave. Instead, I hid myself away for a while and refused to look at my friends list anymore. It took several years, but eventually, I did find some semblance of myself again. But there is still a part of me that feels hurt by all that had happened and having to make do, after all those years ago. It's why my profile still seems a tad barren.

Thanks. Nah, it's not really that. Besides what I wrote above, I've been dialing down my online activities since about late 2010's, in part due to college keeping me busy. I am still active, just not as publicly engaged and a bit more choosy with where I give my energy. I feel tired a lot of the time due to my illness, even if I don't seem it. It affects my mood and energy, and I don't have as much patience to figure out other people's baggage anymore. Many also don't want to hear from me, and that's alright. I've learned to not cling to those who won't stay to listen.

Hey dude. I thought you'd pretty much left the net. Been ages since we played anything on steam together but I hope life is treating you better. May you be healthy and jubilant always!

nixyf1987 thats my discord user. add me there